I just realized that I no longer have a bestfriend.
it’s probably something that I’ve known for awhile,
i think i have ignored it because it’s both surprisingly scary and sad to me, and admitting it makes me fell lonely.

Tomorrow a close friend of mine is losing her bestfriend(because her friend is moving away).
They are extremely close, and both have been avoiding the subject because neither want to say goodbye.

And it just made me reflect on my own life. Tessa is there any friend of yours that if they left would leave you empty and heartbroken? Do I even have a friend that close anymore??

I sincerely don’t think I do